I spent 3 hours in the bathroom at 3 am of 24th.. Stomach was on fire :) But then it got easier to eat all those chocolates and cookies and what not. I finished my eating marathon with a 10 km jog yesterday and now I’m on a deficit again. Back to almost normal haha. Slowly but securely. I was so swollen yesterday and my stomach is still like a huge balloon - however, against all odds, when I went shopping today, size 2 jeans were still baggy. I guess I am still skinny-ish, even with that binging..

Oh and on the 24th my grandma went on and on about how good I looked and how it’s wonderful how I’m this size at my age. Then the second morning, when I wore a pair of shorts, she stared at me and said “I didn’t even realize until right now.. You are too skinny.” and then the rest of the day she insisted that I should eat candy.

Well anyway. My Christmas was GREAT! :D I’m glad I was able to enjoy it pretty well. My stomach wasn’t exactly okay with all that food, but hey, I’m still alive :) Hopefully your celebration was amazing <3

Love,

S

P.S 200 followers? Thank you guys <3

I ate a chocolate santa yesterday (120 grams) and went including my other eating probably just a little over (maybe 100 kcal?) how much my body needed. But I went with minimum kcal the week before. Did drink A LOT (of booze) during the weekend and on Sunday had way too many ginger breads. I don’t feel like eating any chocolate right now btw, which is creepy (because I usually love chocolate..?), but maybe it’s good that I’m dividing all my cravings for like 4 days so I won’t have like one disgusting binge. But my point here is: I just weighed myself. 96,1 pounds.

What. What?!?!?!?????? So I guess it’s okay for me to gain a pound this Christmas (then i can lose it again <3 because i love this. creepy..) but yeah. My bmi is 16.82. I need my period back right now!!

And that’s all. :D Thought I’d let you know that something’s up. Happy Christmas one more time!! <3

Love,

S

I’ll log off for a few days and shut my cellphone as well. Hah, gonna make the best out of Christmas and just hang out with family ;) And give my body those boosting days it probably craves.. Gonna be back on Monday! Then it’s back to the normal thinspo and (ab)normal eating…….. ;)

Much much love,

S